He held my hand tight as we walked into his new school for a small test. I could tell he was nervous by just looking at his face in the rear view mirror. I wanted to say "forget it, lets just go home, you don't have to do this", but we drove on anticipating new beginnings. Inside I want him to stay about 3 years old. I'm not sure how we got to five and a half. He has always been my little side kick, my friend. We moved to a new country when Liam was 10 months old and it felt like we had no friends for about a whole year! it was one of the most difficult years of our marriage as we established a complete new life. My buddy was always with me, by my side making me laugh and surprising me with amazing new things he would do. I'll forever remember those days fondly because of Liam. I don't know how I would have survived without him.
He graduated from preschool last week. We're leaving behind his first best friend and people who truly loved our boy well. A place where he grew and thrived.
I know there are amazing things ahead even if I can't imagine them yet. I hate change, I just want things to stay the way they are, I like it like this. But time pushes us on and we stepped into that big school together holding sweaty hands and he did fabulous.
Today, I'm looking forward to a summer together swimming and playing and making more memories together. I love you bubby.
